Dear Yasha,

Your smiling face and my philosophical talks do not make any good match. Both are the extremes and can never meet (which I always wish to meet some day). “Tu har baat mein dialogue kyon maarti hai?”, your this statement/question/comment is a barrier to my ex-pressions….

We grew up as best of the friends, irrespective of being different. You are Jovial (everyone is dear to you), Carefree (Kya fark padta hai yaar..) and then Caring too (taking me to that doctor in hot august afternoons), Assertive (“Mujhe jo lagta hai main bol deti hoon”) and there is an endless list of your qualities which I always pride to have a part of my memories….

The very first day when we met, You didn’t like me and I hated you.. “How can somebody afford to do that”???, has been my first thought after I met you… But then they say, “opposite attracts”… Suddenly the likings & dislikings reversed, we gave a chance to each other …. And found the numerous similarities in each other irrespective of numerous differences.

Those small sharings, stupid talks over a cup of coffee, sitting on the terrace in the chilled December evenings and being very comfortable about who you are and what you think…

No tension (apart from the one of getting call from home, from sheelu..), only long hours of relevant/irrelevant discussions..

But then time has to change… career, life, love, friends, family… n lots of other issues are to be taken care of. It’s sad but time comes when u feel most uncomfortable while sharing your things with the one you were most comfortable with. I admit that it’s always easy to share your deepest feelings with a stranger than with a friend (at times). “Mujhe kuch confess karna hai”, “tujhe pehle se kaise pata?”, “tujhe sab kuch kaise pata chal jata hai”, “I thought you will shout on me so I dint tell that to you…” you know sweetheart, some words are best understood when unspoken (I know I am being philosophical again). This all bring some differences to the relations (I know u will never agree to this). But at the end of the day we need each other. Sometimes when tired of being fabricated, sometimes when want to be our true self, sometimes when don’t want to speak or listen anything, sometimes when just wish to sit with someone we love and everything will become as plain and as smooth as water. Those few moments spent with each other will bring the life back.

But the irony is that these moments don’t come often… career, life, love, friends, family… n lots of other issues are to be taken care of. But I am happy and hope you too. One thing I am sure about is the numerous questions that are lined up in your mind by now. But as always, I’ll say – “a question asked, needn’t necessarily have an answer”.

Lots of love and wishes,